I am scared absolutely shitless that I am going to get stuck here. This town that Heather and I live in...is an absolute black hole. I just spent an entire class period talkin to a couple of my friends 'bout how this town traps people. About how over half of our class is going to montco, and most of them will never get out. I know that some will transfer, but most of them will stay in montco, and stay in pottstown, and never leave. I mean, we've spent the last 4 years having teachers brag to us about how they were born and raised in pottstown, went to this school, and now teach here. They tell us how the teachers that taught THEM 30 years ago, are now their coworkers, and they think thats so incredibly cool. It scares the shit out of me.
I'm wondering why I chose a school that is so ridiculously close to home. Don't get me wrong, I love WCU, but its so close. Less than an hour away, and for the past 5 years that I've been in this town, I've only wanted to get out. I always thought I'd go to New York, or Boston. I thought I'd go to a school where NOBODY from Pottsgrove never even considered. I thought I'd be so alone, and make all new friends, and never look back at this place. But now I'm going to WCU, and so are some of my classmates, and that scares me.
I want to get away. I want to run screaming from all of this. Because this town is a black hole. People come here, and they never leave. They're raised here, and they marry here, and they buy their first home here, and have their kids here, and their kids just do the same thing all over again. There are generations and generations of families here, and none of them ever leave. It's like a twilight zone.
And I'm sorry, I don't mean to be rude, or to insult, or anything. But I need something different. Something far away from here. I need to run so far away, that nobody knows my name, and I need to never look back.
I want to go where nobody has ever even heard of me, and start completely over. Make something completely new. The hell with this town.
And that's how I'm feeling right now, and I had to get it out, and now I'm done.
<3 kiersten
It's not that they're trapped, it's that they choose to stay. And even as far as Cal U is, there's Pottsgrove kids there, probably less than at West Chester, but still...
ReplyDeleteYou're not trapped either, you just need to choose to break the bonds holding you here.
your name looks funny :P
ReplyDeleteand I s'pose...but still, I freak out :P Thanks, though :)
<3 Kiersten
You won't appreciate where you are now until you leave, spend time elsewhere, and then return. Maybe not permanently, but the ties with your family and friends will have you returning at some point. But you are wise to think about extending your horizons. Best of luck!
ReplyDeleteThanks Bedell, and you're probably right, but right now....I just want to get away from here.
ReplyDeleteThanks, though.
-Kiersten